I spoke many of these words to my husband this morning, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
The earthy, hippy, natural childbirth, question everything people I was aware of in the early 80’s have become the people entrenched in “the government is here to help” and TDS.
“ As for my little life and the people I am with, I choose not to be divisive. I hold my tongue constantly. There is no convincing anyone of anything. They are too entrenched in their belief systems. I wish sometimes that I could have remained ignorant. At least I would still feel like I belonged, but that ship has sailed. I will never blindly vote Democratic again. I cannot watch the news anymore. I do not have anyone on my side. I will just have to be content with being on the conspiratorial fringe, looking in, waiting for the next episode of DarkHorse so I can hear the voices of reason once again”
I, and I know many others in this space, share the sense of outsider-ness. After reading this I was inspired to find and watch Bill Maher's interview of Heather and Bret and was reminded of the joy and relief I felt when I first found and heard them speak science and sanity in the midst of the the mid-2020 Covid craziness. I am confident that their candor and courage encouraged and empowered many confused and alienated souls. The most resonant statement in this story: "I knew that I was not willing to risk it, even if my Doctor was."
I see the world so differently since Covid. The ideologies that so many carry now have me thinking the world’s gone crazy. It seems basic reasoning doesn’t exist, as though we live in a completely different reality.
Please know that you have many on your side. My story is very similar to yours. It's the weirdest feeling to walk around disconnected from your former life. The thought that has gnawed at me through this whole COVID situation was, 'surely this flimsy media narrative will crack at some point, and the people around me will understand'. But it still holds, and the people around me are watching a completely different movie. What will it take?
quite unbelievable, isn't it? my sister and BIL still believe that vaccine injuries are fake. (even seeing the vast difference between their nephew with autism and his younger, less-vaxed brother!!!) hundreds of thousands of people are lying and entering fake VAERS reports! there's no increase in cancers, RFK jr is a nutjob, there were no govt-incentivized narratives, MSM is truthful... I've had to give up caring. there is no getting through. full stop.
When I found Bret and Heather, I felt like I had found my people. They do what I have learned to describe as “help me make sense of the world”. I happened on them shortly after Evergreen.
I, like many many others, can completely relate to your feelings of 'outsider-ness', L.R.! having been red-pilled about 18 yrs ago, after my son's autism dx, I am very used to that feeling, yet totally comfortable with it, to the point of considering it an identity of sorts. but like you, I still have close friends and family who continue to have both feet in normie world. even my sister remains in the tight throws of TDS and blue-no-matter-who partisan politics (wouldn't surprise me in the least if she eventually votes for the obvious socialists.) at least I can say that they 'accept' me as I am and even understand the origins of my views. yeah, I struggle to 'keep my mouth shut' on the regular.
oh but covid... we can lament the divisiveness but I also celebrate it in that now we really know who is capable of independent, rational thought and who isn't! I finally tossed a 45+ year friendship, when the woman's arrogance and ignorance (NOT an attractive combo!) became just too much to stomach anymore. the silver lining of having so many join our ranks has been stunning though. (should have seen me literally fist-pumping when Bret & Heather got red-pilled in real time, with the realization of the non-science of vaccines!)
even the autism community got somewhat divided over the covid shit but we are now more powerful then ever and no longer considered quite as 'fringe' as we once were! however be assured, L.R., that you are NOT alone and will never really BE alone! WE ARE HERE! the biggest silver lining for me was meeting my soulmate, (recently red-pilled round about the time of Brexit) and though separated by an ocean, we are more spiritually connected than most people are, who actually share a physical space.
thank you for your contribution, L.R. it was wonderful to read. :)
My scene is quite different with the whole of the experience, no one in my Alaskan family even considered the jab, since we believe in natural immunity. I may have followed it more closely, and had more conversations about it, but was certainly not ostracized. The majority of my small neighborhood grouping was well awake. Some other relationships were strained, but mostly not reconcilable, and one dear friend who had bought not just the covid era lies, but the whole uber leftist agenda, hook line and sinker, finally seems to be waking slightly from her stupor, just now. For more than you'd think, there is hope... probably no apologies, but sometimes hope is enough.
that is very refreshing to hear! personally, I think that the widespread opposition to the so-called 'data centers' (call a spade a spade, they're 'AI surveillance grid hardware') may be an issue that is bridging the gap a bit. not in the medical freedom sphere, but uniting nonetheless. :)
my boys and I are the only ones in both immediate and extended family, who have NOT gotten jabbed. thank goodness my immediate family are not getting boosters but sadly, I know several others that still are :(
A friend of mine (very left-wing, by the way) told me about when his girlfriend was hospitalized with severe GBS. Her autonomic functions (is that a term?) were completely haywire; her blood pressure would swing very low to very high, and a lot of intervention was done to save her life. When she was stable and and almost ready to be discharged, her doctor came in the room and quietly, behind a closed door, told her that this was caused by her flu vaccine.
A couple things have bothered me about this (besides that my friend's girlfriend almost died.) One is that when he shared this story on social media, all his fellow left-wingers ganged up on him and told him this never happened. They couldn't assimilate this fact into their narrative, so they just threw him overboard.
Second, why was the doctor afraid to say this out loud? How many doctors would just overlook or dismiss vaccine side effects, for fear of looking like a dirty anti-vaxxer? How many people had vomiting, fever, headache, and a racing heart after the covid vax and were dismissed, when they should have had their cardiac enzymes checked? How many practitioners would even dare to submit a report in VAERS?
Just when I feel despair that Justice is a dead concept, news from today comes with Hope attached to it.
No, not about Covid. About something else unexpected, so I can cling to a thought that there might yet be Justice over the pandemic atrocities. It's on a different note, but take heart that things CAN change.
A few years a go a young woman in her 20s was savagely stabbed (37 times) to death in our small town just outside her home not far from us (tbh it's a two square mile town so nothing is very far). The detectives had a good idea who the murderer was. They just had no evidence in order to arrest him. And they had no probable cause to find evidence to arrest him. He was "loose'" for days, defying everyone and everything. But! On a Sunday night my husband and I were making dinner and just outside one of our kitchen windows, a car pulled into the parking lot next door (a small bank building is there), and a man got out and began wiping the inside of his car with bleach.
My husband called the police. There was no good reason someone would be doing that... and it's the police department's job to figure it all out, not ours. Just report it, let them investigate.
Long story short? It was the suspect, and the judge found probable cause due to this "cleaning" to issue a search warrant for his apartment and car. There they found more bleach, bloody clothing and shoes, and a 'manifesto' about his plans to kill MaryRose.
While her mom was battling breast cancer, the judge found the murderer not competent to stand trial. This was appealed, but again" Not Competent. Sent to the state psych hospital.
MaryRose's mom died on Christmas night. All she wanted was to see justice for her child. She did not get to see that.
Today, the decision was overturned, he's been ordered to stand trial, and now we can hope to see him convicted and put away for life.
I did not expect to see this happen so we can't give up - rather, we can wait for Justice.
I spoke many of these words to my husband this morning, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
The earthy, hippy, natural childbirth, question everything people I was aware of in the early 80’s have become the people entrenched in “the government is here to help” and TDS.
“ As for my little life and the people I am with, I choose not to be divisive. I hold my tongue constantly. There is no convincing anyone of anything. They are too entrenched in their belief systems. I wish sometimes that I could have remained ignorant. At least I would still feel like I belonged, but that ship has sailed. I will never blindly vote Democratic again. I cannot watch the news anymore. I do not have anyone on my side. I will just have to be content with being on the conspiratorial fringe, looking in, waiting for the next episode of DarkHorse so I can hear the voices of reason once again”
1000% there with ya, Heather!
I, and I know many others in this space, share the sense of outsider-ness. After reading this I was inspired to find and watch Bill Maher's interview of Heather and Bret and was reminded of the joy and relief I felt when I first found and heard them speak science and sanity in the midst of the the mid-2020 Covid craziness. I am confident that their candor and courage encouraged and empowered many confused and alienated souls. The most resonant statement in this story: "I knew that I was not willing to risk it, even if my Doctor was."
And pissed off others who outted themselves is embarrassing ways to boot...
I see the world so differently since Covid. The ideologies that so many carry now have me thinking the world’s gone crazy. It seems basic reasoning doesn’t exist, as though we live in a completely different reality.
What a terrible spot we've been forced into.
"Forever changed."
Yes.
There's no 'back' to go back to.
Thank you for your writing.
I feel so much of this. Very thankful to have the weekly Darkhorse episodes to remind myself that I am not crazy. 😄
So much of this is familiar to me… thank you for sharing your personal experiences!
Please know that you have many on your side. My story is very similar to yours. It's the weirdest feeling to walk around disconnected from your former life. The thought that has gnawed at me through this whole COVID situation was, 'surely this flimsy media narrative will crack at some point, and the people around me will understand'. But it still holds, and the people around me are watching a completely different movie. What will it take?
quite unbelievable, isn't it? my sister and BIL still believe that vaccine injuries are fake. (even seeing the vast difference between their nephew with autism and his younger, less-vaxed brother!!!) hundreds of thousands of people are lying and entering fake VAERS reports! there's no increase in cancers, RFK jr is a nutjob, there were no govt-incentivized narratives, MSM is truthful... I've had to give up caring. there is no getting through. full stop.
When I found Bret and Heather, I felt like I had found my people. They do what I have learned to describe as “help me make sense of the world”. I happened on them shortly after Evergreen.
I, like many many others, can completely relate to your feelings of 'outsider-ness', L.R.! having been red-pilled about 18 yrs ago, after my son's autism dx, I am very used to that feeling, yet totally comfortable with it, to the point of considering it an identity of sorts. but like you, I still have close friends and family who continue to have both feet in normie world. even my sister remains in the tight throws of TDS and blue-no-matter-who partisan politics (wouldn't surprise me in the least if she eventually votes for the obvious socialists.) at least I can say that they 'accept' me as I am and even understand the origins of my views. yeah, I struggle to 'keep my mouth shut' on the regular.
oh but covid... we can lament the divisiveness but I also celebrate it in that now we really know who is capable of independent, rational thought and who isn't! I finally tossed a 45+ year friendship, when the woman's arrogance and ignorance (NOT an attractive combo!) became just too much to stomach anymore. the silver lining of having so many join our ranks has been stunning though. (should have seen me literally fist-pumping when Bret & Heather got red-pilled in real time, with the realization of the non-science of vaccines!)
even the autism community got somewhat divided over the covid shit but we are now more powerful then ever and no longer considered quite as 'fringe' as we once were! however be assured, L.R., that you are NOT alone and will never really BE alone! WE ARE HERE! the biggest silver lining for me was meeting my soulmate, (recently red-pilled round about the time of Brexit) and though separated by an ocean, we are more spiritually connected than most people are, who actually share a physical space.
thank you for your contribution, L.R. it was wonderful to read. :)
My scene is quite different with the whole of the experience, no one in my Alaskan family even considered the jab, since we believe in natural immunity. I may have followed it more closely, and had more conversations about it, but was certainly not ostracized. The majority of my small neighborhood grouping was well awake. Some other relationships were strained, but mostly not reconcilable, and one dear friend who had bought not just the covid era lies, but the whole uber leftist agenda, hook line and sinker, finally seems to be waking slightly from her stupor, just now. For more than you'd think, there is hope... probably no apologies, but sometimes hope is enough.
that is very refreshing to hear! personally, I think that the widespread opposition to the so-called 'data centers' (call a spade a spade, they're 'AI surveillance grid hardware') may be an issue that is bridging the gap a bit. not in the medical freedom sphere, but uniting nonetheless. :)
my boys and I are the only ones in both immediate and extended family, who have NOT gotten jabbed. thank goodness my immediate family are not getting boosters but sadly, I know several others that still are :(
Your boys are lucky to have you. Well done, Mama
thank you, kindly :) :)
This is me.
A friend of mine (very left-wing, by the way) told me about when his girlfriend was hospitalized with severe GBS. Her autonomic functions (is that a term?) were completely haywire; her blood pressure would swing very low to very high, and a lot of intervention was done to save her life. When she was stable and and almost ready to be discharged, her doctor came in the room and quietly, behind a closed door, told her that this was caused by her flu vaccine.
A couple things have bothered me about this (besides that my friend's girlfriend almost died.) One is that when he shared this story on social media, all his fellow left-wingers ganged up on him and told him this never happened. They couldn't assimilate this fact into their narrative, so they just threw him overboard.
Second, why was the doctor afraid to say this out loud? How many doctors would just overlook or dismiss vaccine side effects, for fear of looking like a dirty anti-vaxxer? How many people had vomiting, fever, headache, and a racing heart after the covid vax and were dismissed, when they should have had their cardiac enzymes checked? How many practitioners would even dare to submit a report in VAERS?
Just when I feel despair that Justice is a dead concept, news from today comes with Hope attached to it.
No, not about Covid. About something else unexpected, so I can cling to a thought that there might yet be Justice over the pandemic atrocities. It's on a different note, but take heart that things CAN change.
A few years a go a young woman in her 20s was savagely stabbed (37 times) to death in our small town just outside her home not far from us (tbh it's a two square mile town so nothing is very far). The detectives had a good idea who the murderer was. They just had no evidence in order to arrest him. And they had no probable cause to find evidence to arrest him. He was "loose'" for days, defying everyone and everything. But! On a Sunday night my husband and I were making dinner and just outside one of our kitchen windows, a car pulled into the parking lot next door (a small bank building is there), and a man got out and began wiping the inside of his car with bleach.
My husband called the police. There was no good reason someone would be doing that... and it's the police department's job to figure it all out, not ours. Just report it, let them investigate.
Long story short? It was the suspect, and the judge found probable cause due to this "cleaning" to issue a search warrant for his apartment and car. There they found more bleach, bloody clothing and shoes, and a 'manifesto' about his plans to kill MaryRose.
While her mom was battling breast cancer, the judge found the murderer not competent to stand trial. This was appealed, but again" Not Competent. Sent to the state psych hospital.
MaryRose's mom died on Christmas night. All she wanted was to see justice for her child. She did not get to see that.
Today, the decision was overturned, he's been ordered to stand trial, and now we can hope to see him convicted and put away for life.
I did not expect to see this happen so we can't give up - rather, we can wait for Justice.